I read this in a devotional this morning. I hope that it is an encouragement to you.
Some people feel discouraged because they have to struggle to understand what God is saying to them. Even focusing on the Bible requires persistent and energetic work to understand it. But such struggle is not inappropriate; it is natural and right. Struggling to understand is normal. A truism of life is that in its most important moments we don’t have the foggiest idea of what we are doing. Our ignorance is partly for our own good. Did you really know what was happening when you entered the university or military training, got married or brought a child into the world? In some vague sense you did, but you also had little idea of what it meant in the long run. If you had understood all that it meant at the time, you probably would not have had the courage to proceed. Then you would have missed out on much good that has come to you through those events.
Dallas Willard and Jan Johnson, Hearing God through the Year: A 365-Day Devotional (Westmont, IL: IVP Books, 2015).